I had the courage.But it's not all unicorns and rainbows.

ABE HAS HEART ♥

Reasons why Abe is the dopest highschool ever
1.Everyone wears pyjamas on Terry Fox day. like EVERYONE.
2.The teachers don't break up moshing and crowd surfing in the field (SO MUCH FUN)
3. Our cross country team is super ballin'. basically.
4.Toga Tuesday
5.Filthy Fridays
6.We have the weirdest math teachers alive
7.We're so ballin' we don't even need a mascot.SUCK ON THAT BOWNESS! ;)
8.We're not ashamed of our flourescent Orange jackets
9. We unite in that most of us are in french, and most of us hate french
10.We just have the coolest people ever.Don't even worry about it.

♥

MUSIC IS SOO NOT YOUR LIFE.

Forever, It has bugged me when people say "music is my life" just because they carry an iPod in their pocket. like WTF no it is not. EVERYONE listens to music. You can say music is your life, when you go to university and study it okay? How many of you people who say that know ANYTHING about theory? How many of you can say you play 4 INSTRUMENTS and sing in a choir. I can, and I STILL don't say music is my life. Yeah, it's a huge part of it. But until you practice 12 hours a day, I won't beleive you. <3

"The more things you do, the more you can do"-Lucille Ball

I love myself today? I think.

I'm just so frustrated right now. I don't get why no matter what, there's always something wrong with me. I feel like I try and try to fix my flaws, without losing who I am, and still being able to be myself but you alway say I love you...BUT... Why can't it just be the I love you part? How the fuck am i supposed to fix myself anymore. And you know what, I love you too, but I choose not to point out your flaws. I realize people are who they are and that people make mistakes and I don't try to change that. Seriously, I love you so much. You make my day so much brighter but i'm stressing out because I feel like you can't accept who I am completely. And that's SO hard on me. I've been told too many times in my life NOT to be myself and to pretend to be what I'm not, to hide the things that are unique about ME. And to hear it from you breaks my heart.

"Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world." -Lucille Ball

Just a wave can save a life

Today we had two presentations at school. One about volunteering, which suprisingly was good. And the second was about a former drug addict/dealer who suffered from schitzophrenia,anxiety attacks and attention span disorders due to drug use. This guy, who's name was Tom stood in front of basically 1000 kids and told us all his life story. I thought that was so amazingly brave. He told us all about from when he thought he was different in junior high, to when he was seconds from commiting suicide, to today. So when I got home, I was telling my parents all about this guy and my dad had a story of his own. This past month, my uncles Aunt Verna passed away at age 95. Someone was telling a story at her funeral about how there was this man, who wanted to commit suicide. He was walking to the bridge (I think. Or wherever he was going to kill himself) and he passed the church. Aunt Verna (in her younger years) was sitting on the steps of the church and as he passed she waved to him with a scarf in her hand, and said hello and he turned around. That tiny little gesture gave him the will to live.

I guess you never know what impact you might have on people. I'm not saying everytime you wave to someone you will give them the will to live,but who knows what flashing that little smile could mean.

"I'd rather regret the things that I have done than the things that I have not."
-Lucille Ball

He's gone!

I'm like suuuuper depressed today, since my brother Jeff is gone to Uvic. I defs didn't think I would miss him so much, but it's weird thinking he won't be around. BUT I guess he's off to bigger and better things, so I hope he does well. Love you to the moon Jofe <3



"Not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced. " -Lucille Ball

Love me or hate me I make an impression

Hello friends. And strangers too I guess. I don't understand technology. My name is Katie McLean, formerly known at birth as Katherine Madeleine McLean, which explains the whole "Kmad" thing. Here is my philosophy on life, as if anyone will care. I can pretend. I honestly think everyone should live life to the fullest, as if everyday were their last. Which sounds suuper morbid, but it's true. Each and everyday is a gift. I've been judged. And I know theres people out there who don't like me. And thats the way life is. Theres people I don't like either. But I try my very best to not judge people. It sucks being judged, and as soon as you put yourself in someone elese shoes, the world makes a lot more sense. Even if I do judge, I always give people second chances.Hate is a stong word, so I try not to use it. I'll admit it slips out, but I rarely mean it. One thing I actually do hate, is kids who don't appreciate anything they have. They treat their parents like shit, when they would be nothing without them. They don't realize how lucky they are to have families who care about them because what they don't realize, is that not everyone has that. I am so lucky to have a mom and dad and brother who i love and who love me. I also have a spectacular extended family who I like to call THE MCLEANS and our family reunion is the funnest thing ever. Mainly because they're the most important thing to me ever. Second most important are my amazing friends who I couldn't live without. These are the people who make the people who hate me seem like tiny insignificant little things because they're there for me. All of them. And they know I'm there for them too. You know who you are, and if you're reading this, I LOVE YOU like, a lot. <3 I love orienteering because I can be out in nature where nothing else matters. Real nature kiddies, no paths just me and the trees. It's the best feeling ever. I love to run. I love to sing. I love to spin around in my backyard. They make me feel alive. Which seems really cheesy, but it really feels good. It's what makes me human. I put myself out there, sometimes it goes well, sometimes it doesn't. It's being myself that's gotten me all the amazing friends I have. I hope you like me for who I am. And if not, maybe we're just not meant to be.

"I'm not funny. What I am is brave. " -Lucille Ball