Sunday, May 30, 2010

How much is unproven potential worth?

Ryan, your question makes me have to think so much harder than everyone elses.Unproven potential seems pretty pointless to me because its just hidden away but I think it is worth as much as it is worth to the beholder. If potential is not shown or used it will never grow, or be developed into anything. But as long as the person knows its there it can be unleashed anytime and wreak havoc on whatever it may.Undiscovered or unknown potential on the other hand is probably the most useless thing ever because it can only be discovered by luck that that person tries the thing they have potential in.I guess unproven potential is pretty much garbage until it's proven, then its not unproven anymore now is it?

Not anymore.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

what do you like about you?

I like my eyelashes. And I really like when people say they look like false eyelashes or when they go woahhh your eyelashes are the longest I've ever seen! It makes me feel awfully special.

I like my eyes. I like them because I think they're a very pretty blue and they sparkle a little bit in the light.

I like that I'm tolerant. I think people make a big deal over little things sometimes and its really not worth it. Like 'ohh so and so talked to me on facebook but i dint reply because i dont like them' I think it's really not that much effort to say hey back to the kid who doesn't have many friends, they know you're there. Don't kid yourself.

I like my voice and I'm proud and happy that I can sing. And I'm usually fairly humble about it. But this is a things I like about me blog so that is unnecessary.I like it because it's not something everyone has and so it makes me feel special too. And, I also just love singing with all my heart, so if I couldn't I do not know what I would do.

I like that I'm a free spirit. I don't like being tied down by the norms and even though I follow them mostly I like that I will occasionally do something stupid and be able to laugh at myself. And by occasionally I mean often in case anyone was worried.

I like that I'm honest. I think it would be hard to keep everything bottled up inside.In the same way I like that people can trust me and that those people who bottle things up sometimes confide in me. I guess I like anything that makes me feel special.

I like that I am able to appreciate the little things in life. I think life would be so much less fun if you didn't notice and take in the things that we take for granted, at least once in a while. I also like that I like being outdoors because people who don't are really missing out on a whole lot of beauty.

I like my boobs. That was for you Lyndsay and Hannah. Just admit they're nice. Okay thats enough of that.

I like that I'm chatty. whether other people do or not, I can keep up a conversation and it helps me avoid a lot of awkward situations.

I like that I can like myself. When I am myself.I like being real. It's a beautiful beautiful thing.

And so I think if we're all thinking about what we like about ourselves, here is my question

What is the best and worst quality in a person?

Where is your most favourite place to be in the whole wide world?

So this is in response to Gundepoos blog because I got in trouble from her for replying in comments and not it a blog. So here goes.

Lets see. If I literally had to pick a place, I probably would pick the beach at my cottage. But it has to be a super super hot day and there has to be all my hooligan cousins running around begging me to play with them. Because there really is no better love than a love from a little kiddy who admires you so much. Speaking of my little cousins, I miss them times a million, and I can't wait to see them in a monthish =)

But if you're talking about a place as in a state of mind, or just a state of being then that's a whole different story. But luckily, I know all about it because I've been in about a thousand of those places this year. One place I don't like to be, is abandoned by someone you thought was your best friend. Because that is a very lonely place.And even when you're surrounded by a bunch of people, you find yourself hating people a whole lot more and you don't see the positive things as much as the negative things. So since that is where I hate being, I think it's pretty easy to see where I want to be. And that is finding a new friend and realizing they're pretty much the opposite of everything you didn't like about the friend who ditched you. Because this place is fun, and exciting, and you find yourself laughing at least 8x more than you find yourself crying, and that is a good feeling. I also really like feeling wanted, and not disposable.Actually, it's pretty pitiful, but I also really like blogging. It's a good outlet, and it feels good to put what I'm thinking outside my head even if noone reads it.I'm pretty much happy anywhere as long as there is either people I love around, or music filling my ears.And if there's both, that's where I like to be most.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

you try to feel the beat

Don't you love, when someone types something, and you can totally imagine it in their voice?
I do.

Monday, May 24, 2010

I'm your puppet

I feel like I'm over it. But being replaced again would hurt way too much.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

New music new music first kisses first kisses

I expected this weekend was going to be boring. But the first day already has proved me wrong. If I sit around on the couch for the rest of the weekend, I will be satisfied. But it's okay, because I get to see the lovely Evoy today, so I know it will be good.I'm just so excited that even though I still kind of hate people and I think everyone is super stupid, I'm so happy with things right now. It's warm, school is almost finished, and I get to se my bros tonight!So here comes the profound start followed by more classic rambling. I think I've finally come to peace with the fact that everybody's changing. I was so upset because I fought it for so long and I didn't want anything to change, but I think it's just that the transition period is the hardest. You want so hard to stick with the old framiliar things, and you don't realize that the new things can be just as, or more exciting.But change is a good thing. I feel like I'm happy with who I am. And even if other people don't like it, I know that I'm me and it's a hell of a lot easier than not liking myself. And I think, even though I'm still scared of some things in the future, I might as well just live in the moment because now I know, that even when things get not so awesome, theres still so many amazing things. The sky is still blue, we still have music, we still have family we still have sunshine and there is SO SO many little things to appreciate. Like finding a new song that makes your heart flutter or having your first kiss with someone that you've waited for for so long. Life is beautiful and so are you. Everyday I plan to be happier than a bird with a french fry, and if I'm not, I'll stop and breath until I am.

Friday, May 21, 2010

That is all.

You inspire me. I love you.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

Letter to the family from my great grandmother

"There will be nothing new in this letter I have not told you before but eternal things cannot be spoken of too often. If I have taught you any- thing of the abundant life I am happy & have therefore left you something of real worth. Give up the habits that are stumbling blocks to you or anyone else. Don’t let the suffering that has come from mistakes be wasted-use it to strive to greater heights. Ask for God's help not only in times of trouble but in times of prosperity. Sometimes prosperous times are more testing than adverse times. Never measure success by material things. Try to be in God's house on Sundays. Memorize 'A morning resolve' in your 'Forwards'& say it every morning & then by God's grace try to follow it. Walter said 'all stick together' & I say it too."

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

I like knowing someone so well you know exactly what they're going to say next
I like trusting someone so much you can tell them everything you love, even if its a little off beat. Like, drinking coke out of magically appearing camping mugs, or eating on the floor.
By the way, I like those things.
I like thinking you don't know anything about a person, then discovering certain commonalities.
I like tea.
I like wearing other peoples clothes
I like being asked for advice
I like when people trust me with their secrets
I like being confused, then finding the answers i need
I like when people genuinely compliment me
I like having pretty music in my head
I like when people say I love you unexpectedly.
I like when people say I love you expectedly.
I like Erin Evoy.
I like holocaust survivors. But not the holocaust.
I like Beating the 20 questions ball. [little asshole]
I like how the sun sets late.
I like genuinely missing someone then getting to see them.
I like massage trains
I like that I can think of so many things I like
I like Jake Steven Ronald Klein-Waller
I like when i accidentally type love instead of like.
I like watching the land before time
I like lyrics that actually mean something
I like that you have tree in your room [ see what I did there Grayson ;) ]
I love life.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

It's like forgetting the words of your favorite song

I've been having some really crazy dreams lately.It seems like sometimes I don't have one for a long time, then I have a couple in a row.I feel sorry for people who say they don't dream. I hope they're like me and they're just in a lull. Sometimes I wake up just being weirded out by it, or sometimes I wake up super super happy, or sometimes it's like in a movie and I practically wake up screaming. I actually do believe that dreams mean something, and I really wish I could figure these out. It sounds crazy, but I've had dreams that have practically come true, so ever since then I kindof over analyze dreams. If you're thinking it in your subconcious dream life, there must be some part of you that wants you to know it right? So the dream world pushes your subconcious thoughts into your concious thoughts, so you're able to make things happen.I find that in these dreams you're usually in a place you've been, but it's not the same. It's foggy and vague because it's not an important detail, but you know where you are. And the important parts, like the people, are really vivid, and you can see their outfits and their hairstyles exactly like they are in real life and when you wake up it's like it really happened, and you don't want it to end.I also think that in these dreams you can FEEL things. Like cold, like hugs, anything that could happen in the real world, but you wouldn't think would be possible in a dream world.Basically, I am amazed at the possibilites of the brain, and I'm excited to sleep now. Dream on friends.