Friday, September 4, 2009

I love myself today? I think.

I'm just so frustrated right now. I don't get why no matter what, there's always something wrong with me. I feel like I try and try to fix my flaws, without losing who I am, and still being able to be myself but you alway say I love you...BUT... Why can't it just be the I love you part? How the fuck am i supposed to fix myself anymore. And you know what, I love you too, but I choose not to point out your flaws. I realize people are who they are and that people make mistakes and I don't try to change that. Seriously, I love you so much. You make my day so much brighter but i'm stressing out because I feel like you can't accept who I am completely. And that's SO hard on me. I've been told too many times in my life NOT to be myself and to pretend to be what I'm not, to hide the things that are unique about ME. And to hear it from you breaks my heart.

"Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world." -Lucille Ball

4 comments:

  1. Whoever has told you to be different, don't be. I love you Miss McLean. All of your quirky goodness and interesting little details about your life that don't matter but you mention anyways. Don't stress about people, and if they truly loved you, they wouldn't ask you to change. Don't trick yourself into thinking they care.

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  2. KATIE MC-FRIGGIN-POO. I never wanna hear this ever again. You are the most amazing person, and anyone who tells you not to be yourself is just jealous. I'm in the same boat as you, and all I can say is that I've learned that most people WISH they were brave enough to be themseleves. You ARE and that's huge. I admit, it's hard a lot of the time, but a lot of people love you as you are, me included. Don't be something you aren't. you don't need to be. You're perfect like you are my love :)

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