It freaks me out that I have to do university applications in like 6 months. Children do not do university applications. Big kids do. So I really do not know how I got roped into this.Everything is changing so fast.It is quite possible that this may be my last full summer in Ontario, but then again, I can decide on Europe or Ontario when the time comes.I still can't decide if I'm stoked on growing up or not. On one hand, we have so much to look forward to and basically our whole lives are ahead of us. But on the other hand, we have the toy story perspective, that we're leaving so much behind not just material things, not just our families but just time. Leaving our childhoods which I don't like one bit. Theres a lot to think about.
I made my bed today, even though I am handicapped at that. I don't do my own laundry. I don't cook for myself, well sometimes.If KD and sidekicks count.I can't sew.I procrastinate.a lot.In fact this blog started like 3 days ago. Basically I am fucked for going off on my own.
But! There is an upside! FREEEEEDOMMM. I will be 18 in less than a year. That is bizarre. No more hiding alcohol from my parentals. Not that I do that anyways. But y'know. It's exciting, and scary,and sad and uber happy. And I guess I can not wait for this rollercoaster of emotions. It's going to be a wild one.
That's all I have to say I think. I'll make a more vague and deep blog for no apparant reason in the near future. I think.
Firworks evoke a lot of feelings in me I think.
I think.
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